this just cant be happening right now, not now!!!
i was just talking to one of my friends on IM. it was a normal conversation, he was drinking wine and once again we talked about my messed up life but he was totally ok with that, he always is. but then he said : " somethimes i think u wanna kiss me lol" and i thought it was a joke. he then said that it is a strong wine or its real and then it hit me.
HES INTO ME!!!! oh fuck, fuck , fuck !!! this just cant be happening.
i asked him what was real and he wanted to know what i was thinking and all i could say was " i dont know"
after that he had to go but he told me hes gonna talk to me about something tomorrow.
i dont want this to be true because i cant afford losing another friend.i only have a few friends left and i so dont wanna give up this friendship because of something like that. i dont wanna know what he wants to talk about , i just wanna keep my friend. this s just not fair , why is my lifw such a mess right now? why? i dont deserve this!!!
any suggestions what to do now???
- this cant be true!!!