so nothing has changed lately, i feel lonely, lost and pathetic!
my friends are living life to the fullest, they go to university ,make new friends and simply enjoy life. BUT I am still living at home, no university, no new people instead NUMBNESS,LONLINESS. i should be happy because i have a wonderfull boyfriends who adores me and a few friends.
but it seems like my friends are starting to forget about me, they live far away because they had to move for university. now its like i have to call them to talk but they never call me, aicha promised to call me today but its already 6.30 pm and nothing so far.i guess she already replaced me.
i sooo hate feeling the way i do right now but theres no way to change it.i try my best to be happy but somehow its not working. i said it before but i really need to be the person i used to!!!
since the break.up with my ex something changed, i changed but not in a positve way . something broke inside of me and i dont know how to fix it. maybe it cant be fixed .i dont know, i wish i could talk to the one person i miss the most , the one i used to tell all my secrets and problems but she replaced me, too.
men tell me all the time that im really pretty and nice but why doesn't anybody care enough to call or mail me?
All i want is to have friends who care and cant imagine living a life without me. am i asking too much?